When I was thirteen, I thought by sixteen I will become a more matured young adult.
When I was fourteen, I thought one year of experience had already made me matured.
When I was fifteen, I thought I rule my own life.
When I was sixteen, I thought back, maybe when I was younger I'm more sensible and innocent.
This year I'm turning seventeen, I do not dare to think when I'm going to be more matured. But I really hope that one day I can bring my mom out for a dinner or maybe be more like a sister to avius and javier, like bringing them out for a movie or something. There are so many "I hope" and I don't know when my wishes and hopes are going to come true. Maybe I should stop waiting for it to come true and start creating it. Recently, I feel that I should spend more times with my family and friends instead of the computer. I know yea, computer becomes our bestfriend unknowingly. Thanks to msn yea, at least I can still keep in touch with everybody no matter how busy I am. I'm not starting to appreciate everything I have but learning to. I think it is not easy. People who are contented are the one who is leading the most blissful life, those are the ones who is living, happily. Thinking about last year, which is my ups and downs year, I suddenly thought of without suffer, without growth. I learn more when I fall down, learn more when I have to gone through those hell. I really wanna be someone more like a seventeen with a seventeen heart and mind. not acting old but more sensible.

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